Um...yeah
In 2 days I hit 41. Somehow, I imagined I would be in a different location on the Monopoly board at this stage in my life. It wasn't necessarily supposed to be Park Place or Boardwalk, but even Marvin Gardens would be pretty cool. Instead, I feel more like Antonio Salieri at the end of Amadeus: reigning king of mediocrity.
My accomplishments are not all that spectacular professionally nor personally. I have survived 2 divorces with no children. Sometimes I wish I had a daughter (always wanted a girl over a boy), and other times I am grateful I am not separated from a child of mine - that would kill me. On the flip side of that, my family line ends with me, so good-bye to traditions.
I have successfully walked away from a great job to have a lifestyle that I can't really afford. My hobbies are too expensive, and I live paycheck to paycheck.
At this point, I often question all the decisions I have made along this journey and wonder what would have happened if I turned right instead of left at selected intersections.
Overall, I conclude that all the things I have done (or haven't done) were all what was supposed to happen to me so that I could learn what those decisions mean in the grand scheme of things.
It doesn't help that my last grandmother passed away on my birthday a few years ago.
My accomplishments are not all that spectacular professionally nor personally. I have survived 2 divorces with no children. Sometimes I wish I had a daughter (always wanted a girl over a boy), and other times I am grateful I am not separated from a child of mine - that would kill me. On the flip side of that, my family line ends with me, so good-bye to traditions.
I have successfully walked away from a great job to have a lifestyle that I can't really afford. My hobbies are too expensive, and I live paycheck to paycheck.
At this point, I often question all the decisions I have made along this journey and wonder what would have happened if I turned right instead of left at selected intersections.
Overall, I conclude that all the things I have done (or haven't done) were all what was supposed to happen to me so that I could learn what those decisions mean in the grand scheme of things.
It doesn't help that my last grandmother passed away on my birthday a few years ago.
posted by Gern at 11:15 AM
1 Comments:
But you have a fabulous picture on your Blog which seems to be typo free. That's quite an accomplishment, trust me on this one.
And the beauty of being male means you have no time limit on having kids. You're not done yet babe, haven't you heard? Forty is the new thirty.
Sorry about you're Grandad though, there's just no putting a positive spin on that one I'm afraid.
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